Well I agree, most of my opinions are crazy, silly, full of craving for male attention and filled with pick me, pick me attitudes. I don’t deny that. I even admit it myself sometimes. I need male validation. Plenty of it. I even approach men who I like for that reason.
But its not part of what keeps me up at night. I try everything to be better. I sell firewood, I have sold kerosene, I look for opportunities to be better. I love school, I get opportunities to remain there. I recently got one last year. I write for people, I do school outreaches, I teach disadvantaged school kids, I read like tomorrow does not exist, I love excellence and pursue it. I have also made some impact here. Some of my ramblings do inspire a small number and I am glad. The fact that I don’t talk about these things too often does not mean I don’t have any progresses that I am making. This is an alternate universe. Many people take it too serious. Sometimes, talk nonsense, unwind, advise, play, joke, yab others, show love.
Meanwhile, I need man;
These are the specifics;
Rich, handsome, responsible, good hearted, loving.
My future kids will not born themselves. I need man o!