If this is what people have to go through before actually meeting the right person ehn? Count me out. I dont ever want to date, marry, be vulnerable anymore.
Nah, nadda, no.
If you love me, keep it inside your pocket. If i go through what i have seen in the last three months again in my life, i would die. By God. If you love me? Put me back in school, fund it. When i am done i will surely remember and lend you a good hand. But i wont be ready anymore in my life to ever give anybody such power over me, ever
Of course i dont have friends, i cant make them. I let people in and they disappear after i can say jack.
I know that my heart is good, i am very compassionate, pretty and just wanting to make other people happy. So i dont know.
If this is what i have to put up with, then the whole package has never been for me. The trick is to stop people from assuming that they love me. That way i am able to protect my soul.
If this is how it is, i am never doing again. Do you love me? Dont talk about it, dont say it to my hearing, i will not believe you, i will fence you out. So just come close, fund my school. Then i might just never take you for granted
Nobody owes me anything, including love. Thats what my year taught me. I have to accept me. Stop hoping that one day after getting serially destroyed, somebody will show up one day and make me happy. I stopped hoping from today. Nobody owes me anything, including friendship, love, even a marriage. I am my own man, my own WCW. Nobody owes me shit at all. It does not matter what i do,how soft i think i am, how glorious, how compassionate. I will always be reminded at last
“oh i dont owe you anything”
I am going for another degree soon. I know nobody owes me anything. I know already. But if you feel you do, put your money into my school. Thats my love language now. I can never forget that. But i dont want dates, i need no promises of marriage, no proffession of love. I just want to keep being in school, busy, learning, being. If you can make that happen, then its all good..
I dont want to marry, i dont want the promise of it, i dont want them all
I want to be in school as much as possible. What is love?
Does it even exist?
If you are crushing, wanting to love me, dreaming of me, I dont need you to say it. Keep me in school. Life is already hard. I dont want to make it harder. Let those who are lucky rejoice.
I want to happy, one place that spells happiness is school. I want to be there as long as life can permit. I hope i dont have to suffer unduly while at it. God help me.